Admittedly, I am still a little off kilter post my decision to leave Wall Street.
Everyday I ask myself: What the hell am I doing?
As a result of all this, I have noticed many big changes. One of them is that, after seeing people, doing things, or going places, I have found myself wondering:
"Is this is the last time I will see this person, do this thing, or go to this place?"
I never even entertained that idea before. I never wondered if everything I know could go away in an instant. I may have been so stuck "in my loop"each working day that I never appreciated the fragility of everything. Maybe it is that as I go to volunteer overseas with my wife, my own life seems more tenuous.
I mean, logically every moment could be the last, so why all of a sudden, am I starting to begin to appreciate this fact? I am not sure. I think getting "unstuck" in my life has engendered new movement and new thoughts.
I am, ever so slightly, getting more "present." When I am somewhere, or with someone, I start to treat that moment as my last opportunity to be in that moment. This has changed my interactions and increased my desire to connect with others.
These connections make my life more complete.